The Reckoning: To be Cracked Wide Open

Hello, and welcome back. In my last blog post I ended by encouraging us all to hold fast to the radical notion that freedom, equality and justice for all are not just merely worn out platitudes, but ideals that together we can make real.

I can feel your skepticism. You are thinking that ideals such as these will not survive in this world but I tell you that we can actualize the vision by dismantling the beliefs, and perceptions that hold the current reality in place.

Our beliefs have caused us to invest in systems that inherently produce inequality, where freedom and justice are for some but not for all. This is a bitter pill to swallow but we cannot deny that the beliefs we hold create the structures that our culture is founded on because the fruit of such beliefs are now being displayed in the open for everyone who is willing and able to see.

When we look we see that our beliefs and perceptions are firmly rooted and grounded in the cult of righteousness. The notion that I am superior based on my gender, race, religion, sexual preferences and how I choose to live my life, so it becomes impossible to create a new world until we perceive and dismantle this fatal flaw.  

Because, the ideology of righteousness in so interwoven into the very fabric of our culture and society that it is almost impossible to fully comprehend the ramifications of the insidious way that it influences every aspect of our lives both privately and publicly.

So we have finally come to a state of reckoning where we must accept accountability for the structures that we have created. We are all complicit in the current state of affairs because we have accepted the current state of affairs.

But we so want to hold fast to our beliefs and keep making the same choices while hoping and praying for a different result to the one that we have been getting but you know what Einstein said, it is insane to think that you can get a different result by making the same choices over and over again.

The fundamental change that must be made to our beliefs and perceptions is to see through the eyes of love rather than the ideology of righteousness.

When we are in the vibration of love we see and know that whatever we create in fear will only beget more fear. When we believe that we must protect ourselves from “them” we will unconsciously create more situations where we can experience fear and the need to protect ourselves.

Why is it so difficult to feel the desperation and suffering that is affecting humanity and all other creatures that are attempting to coexist on this planet? It is because we have closed our hearts.

The unbearable suffering that we have endured for thousands of years under the cult of righteousness has become overwhelming. So we look with the mind through its lens and see the pain and suffering of others as justified condemnation because they are not deserving, and not worthy.

But the sad part of this paradigm is that we only condemn others because we have condemned ourselves. The cult of righteousness has called us broken and wrong, has caused us to feel ashamed of our humanity, has taught us that in order to be worthy of love we must become something other than what we are. This rejection and abandonment is so unbearable that we cannot allow ourselves to feel the pain, so we shut our hearts and pretend that this will save us.

Because our minds cannot comprehend that Love is the law and love does not condemn. Love does not judge. It is love that causes the sun to rise and the trees to bloom the birds and the whales to sing. There is love all around us if we just open our hearts.

Opening the heart is risky and no one does it voluntarily. We think that we can open just a bit but that is not enough. We must be cracked wide open. When we are cracked we feel the pain. It is visceral, and in the body, not some intellectual experience.

But the reward for being open is that it allows us to be truly alive to vibrate with the richness and fullness of love that was always there, patiently waiting to be invited in. So let us allow ourselves to admit that we are worthy of unconditional love for that is how we were designed, to love and be loved in return.




The Great Separation: It is the Best of times and the Worst of times

colliding-galsxies-e1409075817747We have entered a new era in history amidst unrelenting tension and chaos that is escalating exponentially. It is now patently obvious that there is a great separation in the consciousness of humanity wherein two overlapping realities are being played out simultaneously.

On the one hand we have the consciousness of separation, where misogyny, xenophobia and intolerance are the reality of a construct based on “alternate facts”. On the other hand there is an enlightening expansion of consciousness crying for a new paradigm based in love and inclusion.

In my last posting I ended with the assertion that the earth is now engulfed in a tidal wave of energy forcing a time line shift to a new reality, and a new human. This energy is demanding that we each undergo a massive evolution of consciousness.

We know that evolution is upon us because in the midst of chaos we feel and recognize the call to Freedom. It is in our bones, in the air that we breathe, and in the events developing worldwide.

Evolution does not occur in a linear fashion but in quantum leaps. An electron orbiting the nucleus of an atom acquires enough photonic light energy to make a sudden “jump” into a higher dimensional frequency. This is where we are right now. We can go with the energy and jump to another reality or we can resist and decay and die.

The construct under which we are living is destroying our planet, and our humanity. This construct is disintegrating. Now, we design a new paradigm based in the frequencies of love, bliss, and desire where we do what we will and harm none.

We actualize the freedom to birth this new paradigm by claiming and embracing our individual autonomous sovereignty. We are the creators of our reality both individually and collectively. There is no Savior who will intervene to destroy the sinners and save the righteous. Indeed it is the “righteous” that are hell bent on pillaging this planet and keeping humanity in bondage.

How do I know that we are powerful creator gods in our own right? Well, lets get back to the narrative of the fallen Goddess, Sophia and her creation, humanity as told by the Gnostics in the Nag Hammadi material.

The setting is the black hole at the center of the Milky Way. This is the womb from which life in this galaxy originated. Swirling around this black hole is the Pleroma, a vortex of luminosity where Aeons, Divine currents of living intelligence play in the higher octaves of life.

It is here that two distinct Aeonic currents, Sophia, and Thelete, came together once again in the sacred dance of bliss. In their dance Sophia conceived of a creature that excited her to ecstasy by the possibilities that had never before been imagined. She conveyed the vision to her consort, Thelete and together they designed the template for the genome of the Anthropos, aka, humanity.

We are indeed unique and special among all created beings. Contrary to what religious doctrine teaches, we were not created to suffer and serve a jealous and vengeful Almighty.

We were endowed with the qualities of self-awareness, imagination, and the capacity to play and to pretend so that we could be creator gods in own right taking our consciousness to limits where no created beings have gone before.

So how did this plan go awry? The genome of the Anthropos was seeded in the star nursery of the Orion nebula. It was left to develop without interference as a divine experiment of the company of Aeons, to observe how this new being would evolve on its own in a state of free will.

Sophia was so intent, however, on observing the experiment that she fell out of the Pleroma towards the star nursery. In desperation she grasped into herself the template for the genome of the Anthropos. As she fell her light collided with the inert matter orbiting the outer reaches of the galaxy resulting in the inadvertent creation of an anomaly, a swarm of inorganic entities, the Archons.

Sophia finally came to rest at the outer edge of the third limb of this spiral galaxy and there her luminosity condensed to become the material body, planet Earth and she fell into a deep sleep during which the Anthropos embedded within her evolved and developed into humanity.

Meanwhile, the leader of the Archons, Yaldabaoth, developed an intense jealousy and hatred for humanity, so he devised a scheme to destroy the earth and her progeny. He plotted to ensnare our consciousness with the lie that he is the Almighty creator of “all that is” and of humanity. To this end he chose a man, Abram to be the vector of his wrath upon us. Thus began the enslavement of humanity by a religious doctrine of falsehood and deception that has continued to this day, but that construct is now ending.

Intense waves of energy emanating from the galactic center have awakened our Divine Mother, Gaia Sophia. She is now directing the evolution of consciousness within us to birth a new human and a new earth and so it goes.

Join me next time as we continue to explore the birth of “new earth”.









The Good News: What’s Really Going On? (part 1 of 2)

img_2963It has been especially topsy-turvy for most of us on the planet, recently to say the least. We are in a daze of shock and confusion at the current state of affairs, and embroiled is a buzz of discussion, asking ourselves and everyone else, “what in heck is going on”, and “how did we get here”.

In order to comprehend the madness that led to this pivotal point in history, we need to first step back and get some perspective by looking at the larger questions of what am I, where did I come from and why am I here? Only when we examine these fundamental issues will we see the truth hidden behind the veil.

So, you think these are esoteric questions that you don’t have the time to think about, right now, but until we make the time to examine them for ourselves we will remain dazed and confused in the cognitive nightmare that we are all trying to awaken from.

Those who have already uncovered the truth have an anchor and a safe place in the storm. From this safe space we can see what is really going on.

We have been given a choice point in the history of humanity where what has been hidden and is now being revealed. If we can muster the courage to open our eyes and see before us what we have not wanted to acknowledge we will have the ability to walk out of the prison that has kept our consciousness in bondage for millennia.

So, how did we get to this place, right here, right now? Well, as children two diametrically opposing beliefs were implanted into our brains regarding the nature and origin of humanity each emphatic and dogmatic in it’s own way, rooted in a competition between religion and science.

On the one hand religious dogma preaches that we are molded from the dust of this planet in the image of a white bearded guy in the sky. Our purpose is to serve him by denying our humanity. We are commanded to convince every other human by any means necessary that he is the one true god, and because he gave us an immortal soul that he will judge when we die we must obey or burn forever.

The opposing story line says that we are mere flesh and blood, the result of unplanned random combinations of purely material stuff. There is no grand purpose to our lives or to anything else, for that matter. We originated on this planet, we die here, and that will be the end of us so we better grab as much “stuff” as we can while the getting is good, or someone else will get it and that’s not good.

Of course we didn’t believe either absurd story line as the intelligent children that we were. We knew how to create powerful magic with our imagination and intent. We loved, laughed, and played with joyful abandon as we conversed with plants and animals, our toys and the stars. We knew what others where thinking and feeling, and we saw patterns and colors surrounding them.

But because we couldn’t challenge those in power over us, we were gradually forced to relinquish our intuitive knowing and Being until we finally forgot how to be ourselves.

The result of this massive brain washing and repression is that our lives have become an expression of personal dis-empowerment and lack of sovereignty. We live in a constant state of stress either not knowing when the wrath of God will strike us or else we wander hopelessly disoriented searching for meaning in a meaningless world.

We have effectively stationed ourselves in the borderlands of insanity known as cognitive dissonance where opposing beliefs vie for the same space in our consciousness.

The mind finds this state of affairs maddening and will resolve the conflict by suppressing and denying what it intuitively knows to be true in order to maintain some semblance of sanity, but this is madness itself.

Now hear the good news. Even though we live in a dualistic world where we are taught that if we are right someone else must be wrong reality is actually a bit of “this and that” rather than “either or”.

There IS an organizing principle behind all of existence. This is “Source”, the great mystery, that which we come from and that which we are, and to which we always return in one form or another as we choose.

Source is the emanation of pure consciousness creating this universe using iterations of a fractal pattern in a holographic manner wherein each part structurally and functioally represents the whole, while manifesting the infinite diversity that we see around us. In this body every atom is a solar system unto itself and the aggregate that comprises its entirety a universe. Gnostic teachers held this wisdom in the truism, “as above so below, as within, so without”.

Now that we know the pattern of creation, what are we actually made of?

(Coming soon part 2…)

Unplug from the Matrix

mind-uploadWhen I saw the movie, “The Matrix” I thought it was a fantastic study in science fiction, a metaphor, for the trance that has overtaken humanity, but now many years later I know better. Truth is stranger than fiction.

What if I were to tell you that the movie points to the underlying truth of the reality we are all immersed in? What if I were to tell you that we are collectively as a species plugged into a reality that has been constructed to keep us asleep and unconscious of what is really happening on a global scale to the earth and to all of humanity?

Don’t shut down, stay with me. You know in some dark recess of your mind that this is true. You have tried to deny what you already know. The stories that we have been told, the reasons and explanations that we have been given for why life is the way it is have had only one purpose, to keep us distracted and paralyzed.

From the cradle to the grave our life force has been extracted to fuel an illusion that serves one purpose only, to empower the creators of the simulation we are locked into, the program of fear and separation, greed, and hatred.

Stay with me. Do not shut down because it is easier to live the illusion than face the awful truth of the false reality we are immersed in.

Do you really believe that the supreme creator loves a select few of its children but hates every one else?

Do you really believe that we have the right to strip and pollute the natural world of its resources, to slaughter and kill other species for pleasure?

Do you really believe that our sole purpose for being alive in this world is to deny its beauty and goodness so that we may escape to some imaginary place in the sky?

Do you really believe that you are happy and fulfilled in your 9am to 5pm existence with 2.5 children, a picket fence and a mortgage whilst consuming this entire planet in an orgy of limitless consumption and greed?

I don’t think you really believe any of these things but you are too scared to stray outside of what you have been forced to believe. It is too fearsome to leave the herd and step outside the boundaries that have been created for us.

We are social creatures. We want to belong to the tribe. Evolution has bred us to stay together, to crave the love and support of each other. We want to belong, so we stay plugged into the group illusion.

I have good news. Even though we are in a trance like state of exhaustion from the constant fear and hatred that is thrown at us in the media, a glitch has appeared in the matrix. The illusion is beginning to fray at the edges.

Even though we are perpetually distracted by trivial pursuits from the fact that we are being poisoned slowly but surely by Franken-food, foul air and polluted waters, by the electromagnetic onslaught on our bodies from the proliferation of wireless devices and cell phone towers. Even thought the stress of daily living has reduced us to the walking dead, the illusion is dissolving.

Look around, and you will see the mirage fading in the distance. You will see that there are some who have already unplugged from the collective madness that envelops the world. Every day, there are some who are waking up out of the stupor that millennia of bludgeoning has reduced us to.

It is not too late. There is still time to save yourself and reclaim your life. It is hard, I know, but others have done it and you can too. How do you start? Believe nothing of what you see and hear that promotes victim-hood, lack, fear, and separation.

Unplug from the virtual reality where the program of the matrix is stored within the collective consciousness of humanity by coming out of your mind and centering in your body. Ground your consciousness into the planet, earth. Believe only what you know to be true in your heart, plug into its intuitive knowing of truth.

Move into the reality of limitless abundance and creativity that has always existed, the reality that we fell out of when we started to believe the lie. Believe against all odds that life is beautiful, that we are inextricably interwoven into the fabric of all that exists.

Believe that ALL is an expression of the Divine. End your ceaseless search for a god outside of you to rule you and accept the truth that you are the sovereign creator of your own life because you have been endowed with the greatest gift of all, free will.

In this day choose to separate from the herd and unplug from the illusion. You will not be left behind. You will not be abandoned. You will join the community of new earth where we are supported in all things as we become the embodiment of the love that we BE.





The Ruthlessness of Unconditional Love

13522628_10208808712551859_1402923913_nLove brings a lust for life, puts joy in our steps and a smile on our faces. We crave it, want it and must have it. We will do just about anything for love. Studies have shown that loving relationships promote healthier, happier, and longer lives, be it with our pets, plants, or others.

So Life inevitably presents each of us with lessons in love. How we embrace, integrate, and move through these challenges propels us into a state of expansion and freedom or restriction and fear.

I have learned a lesson or two from love. After the untimely and tragic death of my husband I learned that love will not be conditional. Love will accept the beloved in all of its perceived flaws because love sees through the mask to the profound pain that lies beneath. I learned that life is unpredictable and ephemeral. One cannot contain love or store it up. Love must be ravenously consumed in every present moment.

From the affairs that did not go in the direction I desired, I learned to love without the need for expectations. To love while letting go. Life is forever transmuting and evolving. Nothing stays the same as we are pushed and pulled by our demons and desires.

From relationships that left me feeling empty and less than, that tore my heart to shreds, I learned to be clear with myself about what I could not accept. I learned that what I must express is intimacy, passion, sensuality, and honesty.

From the relationships that sought to contain and define me I learned the lesson that lies at the core of all else. To love myself totally and completely in all of my raw and open vulnerability with a ruthless and unconditional fierceness that has no part in fear, that does not barter in restriction or limitation, but seeks only to be the fullest expression of love that it can possibly be.





Words, words, words, and the Mystery of the Sphinx

SphinxI had been laboring over the writing of a blog post, trying to get my point across and was not very happy with the result. If only I could find the right words and place them in the right configuration I would be heard, and the truth would be recognized!

I struggled, even though I was well aware that no matter how logical or persuasive one’s arguments may be, they do not have the ability to change the beliefs of another, they are just more words being thrown about.

We only change our beliefs and the structures they uphold when we encounter an experience outside of our normal frame of reference that cannot be explained away no matter how much we try to cling to that which is being shattered.

I knew from experience that I should stop writing and do something completely different to give my operating systems a chance to reboot. I decided to be bold and take a breather with some acid.

I had taken that piece of dried mango laced with LSD across the Atlantic and back and still had not felt that I had the right time and frame of mind to indulge in the hope of a consciousness expanding experience.

In my prior experimental forays I never seemed to attain the experience that I sought. I reasoned whether I could endure 24 hours with every cell in my body racing like a Lamborghini on the Autobahn for another disappointing experience of poor quality LSD.

Today I felt compelled to give it a go. We were within the auspices of the full moon, Mercury was just stationed direct out of retrograde, and it was Sunday, yeah, no schedules, certainly an opportune time.

So I munched with determination on that piece of dried mango and waited. I was not alone, however, and the hours went by while we frolicked. After some time hunger overtook my companion and off he went for Chinese take out. I finally had a moment of quiet contemplation.

I reclined on the couch and gently gazed at my arm. It seemed immense and heavy as stone. I could not lift it. I felt myself to be in a vast structure, a holy place that contained me. I did not feel trapped, only amazed at the solidity of it all. I felt serene and noble like the great Sphinx of Egypt.

The moment passed but the experience registered. This was the mystery of the Sphinx, the miracle of spirit descended into the density of matter. We have all heard the cliché “the body is a temple for spirit” but who has really had the experience of that knowing.

Until we open to the experiential reality of life in all of its gut wrenching, awe-full-ness, and its raw, immense beauty arguments are all just words being bandied about, ” full of sound and fury, signifying nothing” but still I have to get back to those words, words, words.


Quotation from Shakespeare’s- Macbeth







Revel in your Humanity

freeimage-14773391-highA friend of mine calls Face-Book, face-crack, as in highly addictive substance. When I first heard him use the term I laughed and admitted that FB is indeed compelling even though I use it mainly as a marketing tool. A chord was struck however, as I realized the truth of that statement. Social media can be the perfect distraction from the profound emptiness we feel within. It is indeed a quick fix for the isolation, fragmentation and disconnect that has wounded us on the deepest, and most profound levels of our being.

What is the root cause of this intense suffering? Why do we feel emotionally isolated from the rest of the planet and more importantly from ourselves? We feel a numbness that separates us from the joy and satisfaction that we desire for our lives. We are fragmented because we must constantly expend energy to ignore the elephant in the room, our own sense of despair and dread.

We use social media to placate the intense alone-ness that we feel deep in our bones, however, just like any drug the effects do not last and we need another fix again and again and it is never, ever as good as the first time.

On social media we feel safe to share the bits and pieces of ourselves that are acceptable. We hide the desires and feelings that we cannot face because of guilt and shame created by a morality that has been forced upon us by institutions we did not ourselves create and which we know to be false to our true and authentic selves.

Our religious institutions have told us that our humanity is something to be eschewed. We are less than god, less than angels, less than priests and only slightly above animals. This false idea is reinforced as television, magazines, and billboards show us how our Selves are broken. We need at any cost this deodorant, this makeup, this car, to fix our brokenness so that we can be acceptable and “better than” what we already are.

According to John Lamb Lash, “The suppression of ecstasy and condemnation of pleasure by patriarchal religion have left us in a deep, festering morass.” Our humanity, however, is our core biologic necessity and can only be ignored and suppressed to our own detriment. We see our instinctual imperative erupting in the pathologically warped expressions of rampant pornography, the objectification of women, sexual slavery, sexual abuse of children in religious institutions, and rape and violence towards women.

Not only have the religious institutions backed up by social conditioning forced us to dissociate from our own bodies and senses it has forced us to dissociate from the natural world. Nature is feared and reviled for its rampant fecundity and association with the Divine Feminine. Our human body and instincts have been bound together with the feminine principle as something that is venal and evil and to be feared and suppressed no matter the damage it causes to our health and psyche.

The entire planet has been brought under the dominion of a god that hates humanity, the natural world, and trees. When the god of the Abrahamic religions appeared over two thousand years ago, the Divine Feminine principle as the Goddess, who was worshiped as nature, and among the trees was brutally suppressed.

Yahweh demanded in Deutoronomy 12:2-5 “Destroy completely all the places on the high mountains and on the hills and under every spreading tree where the nations you are dispossessing worship their gods.” Later in history, the Druids, keepers of Gnosis were murdered and hung from their sacred and beloved trees. We see this intense religious hatred of nature reflected in modern times in the scathing label of “tree hugger”.

And so we have become dissociated from the Natural world of which we are one part. We have been commanded to subdue, dominate and consume an entire planet and everything that exists on it. We now rely on simulation, artifice, artificial intelligence, and manufactured sustenance. We raise our children in concrete jungles, imprisoned in apartments with computers and social media as substitutes for direct and genuine human interactions.

And so we have lost our empathy for one another. We have lost our connection to the living planet that birthed us into being. We no longer care for our lost freedom of choice and conscious creation. We no longer have a clue as to our own authentic, instinctual nature because we were forced to abandon ourselves.

How do we correct this crime against nature and humanity? We accept that we are whole, perfect and complete just as we are. There is none above or below us to save or condemn. We celebrate and enjoy our bodies and our senses, knowing that this is our salvation. We allow our desires to bring fulfillment and creativity to our existence and we revel in the bliss of LIFE.

Source: John Lamb Lash, “Not in His Image”2006 Chelsea Green Publishing